Its crazy how flipped around my life is... I was miserable then in a matter of minutes everything changed... Completly and utterly changed... ich bin Spitze

lego?

well i am very proud of my nerdy self... i just put together an awesome sponge bob lego set and it is complex and it looks ubfbvnkjfdn awesome i am going to find a way to post a picture sooner or later.... but trust me it is pretty freaking amazing...

well i guess since i am here and bored heres some poems...

11:11

a wish

a worthless little wish

a time wher even if

there is no logical hope of it coming true

still you take a gamble

throw the die

wish for money

 happyness

a difference

or even love

you wish for strength

for you

and for others

a time for hope

a time that allows you to hold the faint

beliefe that soon

due to one wish

your life

could change...

and...

omg i have become like in love with the band "this beautiful republic"... they are amazing and their songs make me happy sad and jjdkjfleij at the same time... yeah welp... i love halloween it is my favorite holiday cause you dont have to be with family... and you get free candy from random strangers...



haikus and footloose:)

Today jillian and i went to go see footloose i was very proud of the movie it was so cute and... of course it got me a little teary eyed at the end:)

 well after a long day of movies malls panda unicorns and much more i decided to post some of the random "haikus" i have been stuck on since math class yesterday...

I am done wishing,

done wishing for love to find me,

its time i find it.

I can't wait for love,

cause it just isnt coming,

at least not for me.

the moment is here,

stand up stand tall just stay strong,

its time for a change.

what did you just say?

i am NOT the redhead girl.

yes i have a name.

(in gym the other day some jerk snapped at me and was all like "yo redhead give me the ball"... i got really mad... AND i am not even a dang redhead...)

ferrets kinda smell,

cats can be ginormus jerks,

can i have a squirel?

just a hopeless wish

an intense longing for love

it tears me apart.

yuppers dude man sir

that is how you write some poems

oh yeah i am cool:p

haha yeah... so the other day i wrote like ten letters for people only to find out i have no stamps to send them so now i am all sad and i really need to get a bunch of really random stamps...

lists...

yes it is happening i am finally going to write my wish list or bucket list or goal list or whatever people call them nowadays... 

1. dance with royalty
2. eat Canadian bacon in Canada
3. be on TV
4. write a book
5. record a CD
6. meet David tenant
7. write a book
8. publish a book of my poetry
9. get a good review on a book of poetry
10. fall in love
11. have significant other
12. be able to speak in front of people 
13. go to new Mexico to see the balloon thingy
14. get closer to god
15. have at least one friend in every state conquer my fear and walk through statesville
16. get over ten followers on blogger
17. go to Britain
18. live in another state
19. get my licence
20. my first...
21. become really good at playing piano
22. kissed in the pouring rain
23. hold a squirrel
24. be liked by a teacher
25. own one poster from every twilight movie
26. dance with a daddy in a father daughter dance
27. win something important
28. make a difference
29. go around the world and evangelize!
30. take a boat to london
31. memorize a bunch of random phobias
32. ride a unicorn
33. go to six flags
34. eat a taco bell taco in mexico
35. eat a phillie cheese steak in philli
36. have tea in london
37. party like a rock party like a rockstar!
38. graduate
39. have simon cowel coment on my singing
40. try out for american idol
41. married
42. high school dance with person i love
43. get a camera
44. be a fuge staffer
45. say sorry to the people i have directly wronged
46. hug a dinosaur...
47. go to new mexico
48. blog everyday for a week
49. do everything on my list
50. skydive
51. have a baby (years later dont worry no prego maddie anytime soon)
52. find my long lost twin...
53. move into an apartment with a bunch of friends
54. do a backflip
55. become a youth leader
56. book made into movie
57. book made into disney channel movie

ok there are many more but i dont really remember any of em

years?

haha it feels like its been years since i have posted which i guess is impossible but still i feel bad idk why... well life has been crazy and just wrong idk why its just been all hbsfbksjcnurjnakduju but things are finally starting to go at a steady pace... well anywho i have decided i completely and utterly despise speeches... i failed epically i mean i had to write a speech for a book called impulse by Ellen Hopkins who is amazing by the way but so i write it and i actually liked how i did but when i stood in front of the class i legit froze i could not talk and when i did i stuttered and shook and couldn't breath. i was so beyond embarrassed it was ahjfjlllllflll... but i am glad its over... well i am going to try to post a poem or something later but who knows...


oh and i have become slightly in love with the show the big bang theory! aha yuppers