ice age... plus a long rant ;)

OK so I'm finally posting another poem thingy... this is one of my least favorite ones but its the only one i actually feel like posting... for now...

an ice age is coming

its coming for me

to change my whole life 

to a different degree

its getting colder and colder

its freezing so fast

a brand new future

 without a trace of my past

i stand alone 

in the freezing cold

I'm hungry and lost 

and unbelievably scared

it took me by surprise 

i wasn't at all prepared

i look and i look

but there is nothing to find

i would give anything 

if time i could rewind

i would not take advantage

but treasure it all

may it be the big the medium 

or even the small

but an ice age is coming

 its coming for me 

to change my whole life

 to a different degree

comments appreiciated

    yuppers... this week has been shockingly hard on me. its like i don't want this week to happen cause i don't want to forget anything that happened last week. I'm holding on to my memories of last week so hard i wont let new things in.....

         its getting really annoying cause my mind wont shut up and I'm mad at my self for missing certain opportunities. i felt that my life changed so much but every things the same. i really hate when i get comfortable with an idea and then all the sudden its ruined and my life goes back to the same stupid circle of regret and loss. I'm really mad about school starting again soon...

            it seems this summer has brought me closer to god and i fear that school is gunna pull me back into the same pattern of messing up constantly and ignoring the voice inside my head. i also fear for my friends i fear that i am gunna have to stop talking to them cause i don't have the strength to be me around them... 

                i know i already had my summer break but i need at least one more chance to get out of my house at least one more chance to make this the best summer of my life...

who could have guessed that within one scorching summer i lost my love gained a new life found my calling got closer to my best friend and gained what i hope to be life long friends... shoot the summer aint even over yet...

wow it feels good to let crap out.. 

love yalls peace//